Sorry
to disappoint but I do not expect my race preparation techniques to
feature in a Running magazine any time soon. The morning of the race
I undid the knot in my elasticised running pants so they fit and
tried to tuck in as much back fat into my sports bra as possible to
close the straps. The night before I ate copious amounts of pizza.
The week before I did no training as I was too busy making home brew
and getting slightly tipsy on the tastings. Three months before the
race I managed to squeeze in five runs. All in two weeks before the
race. My children were more excited than me and were expecting me to
win a trophy. The only thing I knew for sure is that they would be
disappointed.
I could face this potentially humiliating race if I could find
someone equally as ridiculous to do it with me. My one and only
running partner, Gazelle had abandoned me to return back to
university, taking any training motivation with me. Many requests
were rejected. However, I did find one willing, brave soul who
prefers to be unnamed and henceforth will be referred to as P. She
too had not run all summer and before that only ever on a treadmill.
Then I gave my attitude a major overhaul.
If
someone had said to me last August (while I was laboriously running my ten steps
and then recuperating by walking ten steps for a total of ten
minutes) that one year later I would run a 5k race I would have told
them to “tell 'em their dreaming!” Here I am one year later about
it do it. That alone is an accomplishment and something to celebrate.
One year later I am a runner who is still running (never mind that it
is sporadic because really when does life ever go to plan.) No, if I
was going to run this race it would be with a spirit of joyfulness
and gratitude - gosh darn-it!
I
always knew the Butter Trail run would be the perfect first race for me. It
is a beautiful, peaceful trail. The race is small (120 people
registered, half doing the 5km and half doing the 10km). The $40
registration fee is a fund raiser for the local recreation centre.
Asking for donations just ain't my style. I admire and respect the
race director, Jennifer Langille, who is humble and gracious. There is free child care. Fortunately, the
weather was 16 Celsius, slight breeze, with just enough cloud cover
to keep the sun off. You couldn't even pre-order better weather. The
best part of all (besides the race t-shirt and goody bag) is that you
can pin your race number to hide any jiggly belly fat.
Standing
at the starting line was rather nerve racking. Truth be told I was a
tad emotional too. I hoped P didn't notice. Mostly surrounded by all
these rather serious, fit people fiddling with their gadgets and
gizmo’s. I still wasn't sure what my running time would even be
having never timed myself before. The starting gun fires.
The
locals came out of their houses with lawn chairs to cheer us on. I
always run alone so I get such a happy buzz running with other
people, and for awhile I just soak it in. I also get talkative which
is hardly surprising. Any excuse really! I remember my friend Nicola in Scotland saying
during her first marathon she just gave up and started socialising.
At the time I thought she was bonkers and wondered how that could
possibly happened but now I understand. There is such a party
atmosphere and a huge sense of camaraderie. I start yapping to P. “I
can't talk!” she puffs at me. Then we hit the killer hill.
My one and
only expectation I had of myself was to run the whole way. Even if it
meant I could get a faster time walking I still wanted to run it.
People pulled their cars up into the park with music blasting to
encourage us. Half way through the race I find myself running
alongside a woman in her sixties and for awhile we ran together,
matching step to step. Some sort of magical runners synergy takes place and when
she pulled away ahead of me, I felt a better runner because of it. I hope anyone that runs with me leaves feeling the
same way. I realise that any fears I have of competitiveness have
been vanquished. I have never felt less competitive than when I
running this race. I ran using everything I learned along the way mudras, meditations, mantras. Most of all I ran with joy and gratitude that I can. A lone Bagpiper appeared on the trail at the
final kilometre. Nova Scotia; the only place more Scottish than
Scotland they say; it is true.
Seeing
the finish line my heart fills with joy
and I remember how I always thought I would cross the finish line
with a cartwheel, if I ever ran a race. Hopefully my children will
get a kick out of it and it will distract them from the
aforementioned trophy. I finish how I ran the whole race; running and
smiling. I cross the finish line. I cartwheel.
I
originally thought it was really important to me to have my family at
the finish line, so at first it was mere surprise when they were not
there. I took a few moments to reflect and realised that this is best
possible way to finish my first race. Alone. Running has been a very
spiritual, personal journey for me. It was meant to be. My husband
can be absolved of any guilt. He wasn't at the finish line with kids
because he did not imagine I could run it that fast. Still pissed the
children missed the cartwheel though!
P
finished with a really inspiring time and should be proud of herself for her sheer
bravery and guts. She is already trying to convince me to take part
in another race in October. My original plan was to run one race a
year. But there was one element of racing I did not expect; it is
FUN. Will see.